An Insomniac Asleep.

I can't sleep.... I am tired. It's been 3 days and I am now walking round and looking like a fkin Zombie. Question, why does a person who is physically and mentally exhausted still have a brain that won't shut down? I am completley and utterly tired yet the moment I lay down my brain goes into overdrive and I start to think the most trivial stupid thoughts, "Do I even like that show?".."I need to clean the oven".."I wonder what ma'Kev is doing"..."I wish HK could snore in rythym"...
A couple of days ago I bought this really weird plant,,, seriously it looks like it's from another planet and boy does it make me giggle, not laugh but giggle...for NO reason whatsoever!! So I was lay in bed trying to sleep and for some reason started thinking about this plant.... could I sleep, no I ended up sat in the living room reading.
I met this friend through a Morten Abel webpage, she is in America, she is really sweet and the best thing is because of the time difference and my NON sleeping habits I get to be awake when she is. We talk about random things and important things, her husband, my fella. She is pretty awesome and yet has never questioned the fact I am awake at 5-6-7-8am. That got me thinking most american's I know I have met over the interweb and they also never questioned that I was awake. Yet when they are awake at their silly times the english are always sure to ask why.. Is this because we are a nosey nation or because we assume they have sleeping problems like us?

I have also taking to cleaning the apartment at the most bizzare times... when I say clean, I don't mean the typical housework, laundry and dishes... I am talking, emptying the cupboards, the fridge, reorganising the wardrobes, cleaning the floors.... all this between the hours of 4am to 7am--- what the fk? Who does this?
I am so tired, and then it gets to 8am or 9am and I think "oooh maybe I should lie down for an hour" but I know for a fact it wouldnt be for an hour, you see when I do sleep it's for an hour, then I wake, fall asleep again then wake again an hour later.... this goes on. So not only do I not sleep, when I do sleep it's broken sleep which makes me feel even worse. I know what I am saying now is making no sense at all but you have to take into consideration the it's currently the 4th day of non sleep/broken sleep and it's 7.28am. HK is snoring, I am yawning, the cat is sleeping and I can't rbing myself to go to bed. Why is that when I know I am tired?
I have even taken to doing silly things when I am wake because I am bored. 2 nights ago, I cut my hair, extremely short. I ahve been wanting to grow out my hair for a while but because I was sleep deprived I thought this would be a great idea, I don't regret it, it looks fabulous (of course it does, I did it hehe) but I don't know why I did it. It's very pixie like, very short lol. Not that you care, I am just now in that zone that its silly o'clock and I again am tired but don't want to go to bed. It's like I have a fear of missing something. Like I know I have so much to do tomorrow even though I don't. I act and behave like I have this unbelievable fully schelduled life when the truth is all I do is write, clean, draw, write and clean some more. Why do I fool myself into to believing such crap when I know I have to go to bed?

I know I ma not alone here though, I have a good friend MJ who is the same as I when it comes to his sleeping habits. He can go a week perfectly routined and then all it takes is one night to throw him off and he will be up all night talking to me on msn, and I do not exagerate when I say all night, we can talk untill 8-9am, and there was one time where we spoke from 3am till 11am, we then decided, to push it, stay awake all day and try and get back on track like a noraml person,,,, it takes ages for us to do this because we end up napping during the day then we are awake all night again. Luckily in time we manage to get it back to normal though. I think his girlfriend is a trooper just like HK for putting up with our habbits. She deserves a medal. haha.

Lucky for him though at the moment he is on Normal Time, whereas I am writing a blog at this time lmao. How the hell do I get into this sleeping mess?
Well today I will be gutting out my bedroom and stripping it top to bottom giving it a right good clean, if all goes well I will stay awake through the day, tire myself out doing that and then sleep tonight. If not, I will take one of my Rohypnol's (prescribed people, prescribed) and knock myself out.
Anyway, gonna make myself a good old fashioned english cup of tea now..... I will maybe chat again later. Feeling all chatty lately and like to share my pointless ramblings.
Untill next time, me and my A.D.D say........
Toodlepip