A little bit of nothingness.

A new adventure, a new challenge, a new little piece of fun. My adventure will be dedicated to the following, Jeffrey A. Conner for his unconditional love and support in my every endevour. Marcus J. Williams for his complete insperation and faith.
I am going to put my all into my new project, this is something I really want, and with some words I have easily been lead to believe I will be good at it. If anyone can do it, I can!
These people have give me so much in the way of faith in myself. How on God's green earth do you thank someone for something like that? How about by doing my best not to fail. Hahaha.

So I went seeing MJ perform again a little while ago and of course was not disspointed. Absolutely fantastic that for a moment while listening, I close my eyes and I get to see/hear Michael live as this was something I never got to experience. I will never tire of this.
I did see something brilliantly unexpected though, during one song, he brought up his girlfriend on stage and in my personal opinion she lit up the stage, such a natural beauty. She looked brilliant, like she belonged there, there was no pretence in her eyes, no showing off. Just so natural, and for me this made her sparkle. Bringing partners up on stage is something I find very cliche and a little bit irratating, but this time, for that song, and the nature of it, made me enjoy every moment.

So my dear laptop is slowly dying and I am positive the only thing keeping it alive is my love and devotion to it ahahaha, so because of my new project HK purchased me a new teeny tiny laptop to write on wherever, whenever. It's perfect! Its so cute! Haha.

Okay complete subject change here..... I have watched a few movies and there is one I really need to comment on, thanks to ma' Kev, I watched Grown Up's starring Adam Sandler plus many many more. I was not one bit disspointed. It was such a brilliant fun film that was perfectly cast and not at all over acted. It was written with such brilliant passion. For people over 30 it made you think back on the much loved days of playing outside with friends. No computer games and cellphones taking over your childhood. It allowed you to remember when children were children. You laughed remembering the stupid dangerous games you made up with your friends. It helped you remember what real fun was without costing you a small mortgage. When families spoke to each other without the aid of a social networking site online.
I reccomend this movie to anyone who despises the way family life has become for 90% of society. It's funny and laughable in so many ways but has that simple underlining message.
Also for me, it's Sandler back at his best.

I am still boycotting the Karate Kid movie. Yes yes, I have heard it's a good film, but that's not the point, for me it's a movie that should never been remade, who are we kidding here, especially to launch the career of a celebrity couples offspring. In my opinion when your asking someone if they have seen such a classic cheesy film their answer should not be "Which one, the old one or the remake?"

I helped my friend take his two lovely awesome funny dogs for a walk a few days ago and oh my God, it made me realise how much I really do want a doggie of my own more than ever now. Hahaha.

HK has been so brilliant recently, we have been having some good laughs together, it's been a good month I think. He is snoring very loudly now though so I take all the nice things I have ever said about him back. I can bearly hear Bruce Willis trying to save the day!!
Well I am gonna turn my movie off now and try and get some sleep. maybe I will talk some more nonsense later! Its all for L.O.V.E after all.
Toodlepip

A Guardian Muse?

He told me that when certains times come when I think I am falling, instead, paint, dance, draw and write. He was right.

I have a good friend who even though we do not know each other that well, we do know each other quite personally on some degree/level. When we talk it's very very rarely "How's the weather?" type chats. They are usually most always meaningful and about things that matter.

He was right, he was honest, not knowing my own future he could have possibly just saved me. He'll never know, it will always always be hard for him to believe, on msn , it's just words. I understand that. Either way, without being all dramatic, he managed something no one else could. Never before have I met someone who goes into a friendship without an agenda. For him there is no agenda, he is just simply a nice person who wants to be treated with honesty and respect and in return he gives it back. What more can a person ask for? His passion for life, his honesty with people, his innocent and pure intentions has give me faith in not just humanity but myself. If ever in life he needed anything from a friend who also needed nothing in return I would easily be there. I will never ever know how to thank him. I wish I knew how though.

Anyway, serious bit over, just a quick catch up now before I go to bed and be able to sleep haha.
Okay lets see, since we last spoke what has happened? Hmmmm, ah yes
Jean Claude Anderson and Jack Napier's house burned down in a fire, Jack Napier and Lois Lane found their own place and are now living happily ever after.
MJ somehow had managed to convince me not only I am a Twilight fan (ssshhhh) but I also want and need a doggie in my life, which I am getting shortly.
Ma'Kev came through with a muuch needed package for me for which I will be forever indebted.
Ooh ooh oooh, something happened that I thought never would in my lifetime, I got to see a Charlie Chaplin movie on the big screen, the film club in Drammen showed it, it was brilliant, sat there with 9 other people watching this outstanding extraordinary black and white film with every emotion capable. Fantastic.

Of course I have to give a quick mention without boring whoever is reading this, a year has passed, it's now been 12 month and 3 days since we lost him. Michael Joseph Jackson, our Peter Pan, our gift from a higher being. How fast it has gone and the heavy ache is still as strong,
Forever he will be miss and never will be forgotten. Goodnight Little Prince.

Well enough for now as thoughts can sometimes be too heavy to be aired online for the world to read especially when can not be understood by the author.
Goodnight and toodlepip.

What Am I Talking About?

So what's new?, Nadda, zip, zilch, zero! I today have done nothing, early hours of the morning I did the laundry, cleaned the kicthed and did the floors. I eventually did get some sleep, broken sleep but sleep! Woke up around 3pm which sounds scandalous but I didn't go to bed till 9.30am so it's not that terrible. When I woke (which took a total of around 3 hours haha) I spent most of my time on my laptop watching tv shows. Which brings me to my first topic of the day, Yes my good people Doctor Who is back!! We are on the 3rd week and despite the fact we had another regeneration and now have a new Doctor, it's still a great fucking show! Matt Smith took over after the departure of our sadly missed David Tennant and he has filled the shoes brillianlty in my opinion, although he has a brand new quirky character he still has the basic elements of our much loved timelord, Keep up the excellent work Matt and you won't go wrong.
The Forgotten I am now begining to miss, I really do hope we get a second season soon, Slater really fits the role perfectly as do the others too, the stories are fantastically written and it's just a great watch! Of course SVU season is almost over which is a little, aaawwwww but Criminal Intent has just started and it's great because Jeff Goldlum is still in it which means I will carry on watching it.

Apart from that my life is still as boring as ever, BUT if all goes well I will have my baby by my birthday, yes HK has agreed to let me have a chihuahua, a teeny tiny doggie people... all for me!! hahaha. I can't wait!

I am smoking a lot lately, I go through these stages,,,, BUT I don't care, it's my only crutch since I stopped drinking lol. And I did, I stopped drinking, it's great, although I ma now addicted to milk which is not good because my weight has ballooned hahaha. Ah well, can't have it all I suppose... jeez imagine how fat I would be if I didn't smoke! LMAO!
Maybe when I get my little teeny tiny doggie and go for a walk everyday the weight will slowly slide off me, ooh that's a nice thought!
Now my dear followers, yes all non of you, I have a confession to make,,, I turned into a girly girl and have recently been hooked to Sex And The City (it's okay though, it's over and is no longer fashionable).... so yeah I have been watching it.... it's not that bad and does make me laugh in certain points, there are some great quotes and points put across. Truth be told though it does make me feel all wrong inside for watching it, I guess this is what they call a guilty pleasure, so I will cleanse myself later and watch Star Trek, or Quantum Leap or even better some Law And Order SVU! OH my dear Lord, Eliot Stabler is leaving SVU, how not cool is that!!??!!.

My cat Gandalf the Grey is turning into a psychopath, as I walked out of the bathroom earlier, he wrapped his 'arms' around my leg and bit me on my thigh,,,,, why? He then continued to run around the room for no reason for about 20 minutes. He is now lie on his back, spread eagled, snoring.. I ask you, what kind of feline is this? haha.

I think I swallowed a spider the other day.

So my very good friend who is super cool MJ, as you know copied the dvd of Michael Jackson's This Is It onto tape cassette for me. Why people ask me? Haven't you got it on cd? they say..... NO!!! The cd is just the collection of songs used in the 'movie' MJ has put the dvd, talking incliding onto cassette for me.... to me this is what should ahve been done anyway, it was wrong to advertise the cd has the movie soundtrack when it wasn't, the versions of the songs used in the 'movie' were not what was on cd.... it was just a Best of ... in my opinion, so what MJ did for me is miles better and I have been listening to it a lot since HK bough me my new double cassette player. Yayyyy!

I am bored now, which means if there is someone reading this you too must be close to hanging yourself from the rafters now, not only do I not stick to one topic, not only do I drone on about nonsense, but I do this forever, for which I apologise. And I also apologise in advance for the fact I will probably be back in a few hours hahahaha.... only the gods know what I will be discussing then haha.
Live long and prosper people,
Toodlepip.

An Insomniac Asleep.

I can't sleep.... I am tired. It's been 3 days and I am now walking round and looking like a fkin Zombie. Question, why does a person who is physically and mentally exhausted still have a brain that won't shut down? I am completley and utterly tired yet the moment I lay down my brain goes into overdrive and I start to think the most trivial stupid thoughts, "Do I even like that show?".."I need to clean the oven".."I wonder what ma'Kev is doing"..."I wish HK could snore in rythym"...
A couple of days ago I bought this really weird plant,,, seriously it looks like it's from another planet and boy does it make me giggle, not laugh but giggle...for NO reason whatsoever!! So I was lay in bed trying to sleep and for some reason started thinking about this plant.... could I sleep, no I ended up sat in the living room reading.
I met this friend through a Morten Abel webpage, she is in America, she is really sweet and the best thing is because of the time difference and my NON sleeping habits I get to be awake when she is. We talk about random things and important things, her husband, my fella. She is pretty awesome and yet has never questioned the fact I am awake at 5-6-7-8am. That got me thinking most american's I know I have met over the interweb and they also never questioned that I was awake. Yet when they are awake at their silly times the english are always sure to ask why.. Is this because we are a nosey nation or because we assume they have sleeping problems like us?

I have also taking to cleaning the apartment at the most bizzare times... when I say clean, I don't mean the typical housework, laundry and dishes... I am talking, emptying the cupboards, the fridge, reorganising the wardrobes, cleaning the floors.... all this between the hours of 4am to 7am--- what the fk? Who does this?
I am so tired, and then it gets to 8am or 9am and I think "oooh maybe I should lie down for an hour" but I know for a fact it wouldnt be for an hour, you see when I do sleep it's for an hour, then I wake, fall asleep again then wake again an hour later.... this goes on. So not only do I not sleep, when I do sleep it's broken sleep which makes me feel even worse. I know what I am saying now is making no sense at all but you have to take into consideration the it's currently the 4th day of non sleep/broken sleep and it's 7.28am. HK is snoring, I am yawning, the cat is sleeping and I can't rbing myself to go to bed. Why is that when I know I am tired?
I have even taken to doing silly things when I am wake because I am bored. 2 nights ago, I cut my hair, extremely short. I ahve been wanting to grow out my hair for a while but because I was sleep deprived I thought this would be a great idea, I don't regret it, it looks fabulous (of course it does, I did it hehe) but I don't know why I did it. It's very pixie like, very short lol. Not that you care, I am just now in that zone that its silly o'clock and I again am tired but don't want to go to bed. It's like I have a fear of missing something. Like I know I have so much to do tomorrow even though I don't. I act and behave like I have this unbelievable fully schelduled life when the truth is all I do is write, clean, draw, write and clean some more. Why do I fool myself into to believing such crap when I know I have to go to bed?

I know I ma not alone here though, I have a good friend MJ who is the same as I when it comes to his sleeping habits. He can go a week perfectly routined and then all it takes is one night to throw him off and he will be up all night talking to me on msn, and I do not exagerate when I say all night, we can talk untill 8-9am, and there was one time where we spoke from 3am till 11am, we then decided, to push it, stay awake all day and try and get back on track like a noraml person,,,, it takes ages for us to do this because we end up napping during the day then we are awake all night again. Luckily in time we manage to get it back to normal though. I think his girlfriend is a trooper just like HK for putting up with our habbits. She deserves a medal. haha.

Lucky for him though at the moment he is on Normal Time, whereas I am writing a blog at this time lmao. How the hell do I get into this sleeping mess?
Well today I will be gutting out my bedroom and stripping it top to bottom giving it a right good clean, if all goes well I will stay awake through the day, tire myself out doing that and then sleep tonight. If not, I will take one of my Rohypnol's (prescribed people, prescribed) and knock myself out.
Anyway, gonna make myself a good old fashioned english cup of tea now..... I will maybe chat again later. Feeling all chatty lately and like to share my pointless ramblings.
Untill next time, me and my A.D.D say........
Toodlepip

People Watching........

Okay, so sat here at Lois Lane's work, watching people, sat at the counter near the window watching all the people, different kinds of people outside.

It started with me saying I would keep her company from 9am till 8.30pm while she worked alone. Of course I brought my trusty laptop.

So many different kinds of people doing a lot of the same thing in different kinds of ways.

It's snowing quite heavily now and watching people's reactions is quite entertaining on so many levels. Young "tough" men acting like the cold does not bother them because they are tough, hard and mean... when you can clearly see them shiver in agony when they think their friends are not looking. Young girls going to college dressed like they are going to a summer beach party complaining they are slipping in their heeled shoes. Teenage boys walking all cool and Californian "dude like", thinking they look like proffessional snowboarders. So many people thinking they are different and stand out from the crowd, when to watch them like I do right now you can clearly see clone after clone. This is better than your typical reality TV because these people have no clue they are being watched. One man recently walked by clearly having an heated discussion on the cell phone, not knowing he was being observed he was so comfortable in making these rediculous faces to show his anger even though the other person on the phone could not see him. He was pointing at the phone, it was quite amusing, but not as amusing as when he saw me and started to act completley different. People do change their personas when they are being "judged" or so they think by others.

I have been watching a young girl in her early twenties sitting at the bus stop now for almost 20 minutes, she has cried twice and had a conversation on the cell phone, and now she is texting and laughing out loud. I wonder, if she knew I could see her would she be laughing out loud?, Hmmm I wonder.

I also have a theory about people and cell phones, I believe that people only use them for one: They are bored, and two: it stops strangers from conversing with them. Ninety percent of the people I have observed today in the past six hours have ALL been talking on the cell phone when stood near someone else, and when that someone else walks away or gets on the bus the phone magically gets put back into the pocket. I wonder, are they really on the phone or are they just terrifed that a stranger may ask a simple question such as "Do you have the time?"

Have people become so hooked on chatrooms online they fear actually having a conversation face to face?

The snow is really coming down now.

There is an old man across from me, sat also at the bus stop, coughing (badly may I add) and smoking, this is his fourth smoke in nearly ten minutes. The lady beside him has only just arrived there yet had managed to check her watch many many times. All these people stood at the bus stop and all of them attempting to look busy and not making eye to eye contact for even a second. Why?

Hahahaha, I am sat here on my sixth hour of watching folk, listening to The September When (which is perfect music to go with this outside "movie".

How many more people are gonna fall?

Everybody is gone, the bus stop is empty, no cars,,, everything quiet. It's amost the end of school. Lots more people are due to arrive on scene soon.

Okay thats the third person to have bought ice cream today! What the feck?? haha. I must be missing something here.... they freeze outside, come in here an order ICE CREAM! Where is the logic?

The scenery out here looks amazing though, I am in the middle of nowhere and most of the snow is untouched. Looks like it's been mixed with glitter. Like something from a fantasy film. Amazing! It really does look beautiful.

The smell of burgers is really making me feel nausiated now. I have come to the conclusion that Lois is a legend, I could never ever work in a fast food place. The smell is just getting to be too much now. I know I will not for a very long time want, a Burger King, McDonalds or take away. My hair smells of grease. Eewww! Hahaha.

The snow has stopped.

Another five and a half hours and I get to go home, relax on the sofa and be warm and happy with HK. First of course I will do the housework haha.

Yes I feel tonight is a sit on the sofa and read my book kinda night listening to some excellent relaxing music, meaning Morten Abel or Michael Jackson, maybe both depending on how the book goes hee hee!

WOW!!!! A bus almost just crashed... that was surreal. All is good though, those roads must be slippy for that to have happened. I know I am currently just commented the non-happenings of my day and it's not very intresting, but I find people very very intresting and that is why I have done nothign all day than sit at a window and people watch! Gonna go for a short while now, get a hot chocolate or something.

I apoligise for all my recent typo's, I am a very tired individual! :-)

Toodlepip!

Is It The Twilight Of My Life?

Okay so of course I am a person who believes one can not have an opinion on somethings without experiencing it first. So even though as a fan of movies such as The Lost Boys, Interview With A Vampire, and Queen Of The Damned I reluctantly watched Twilight to see what all the fuss was about. It was hard not to go in with an open mind due to all the reviews I had heard. "Shimmering shiny vampires?"... Still I went ahead and watched it. Only one person told me that he thought I would enjoy it and that was MJ, the rest tol me to stay away which made me more curious.

Although I have not jumped on the Twilight bandwagon I did enjoy it as a movie in it's own right, not a vampire movie. I thought the casting was all wrong and the story was pretty predictable and flat. Yet I did take into account that it was mainly an introduction tot he characters because the second movie looks to have much more of a story and I am looking forward to seeing it. Very much, sshhhhhh, don't tell my friends hahaha.

Next... I am now on episode 12 of The Forgotten starring Christian Slater and I have given it enough epsiodes to form an opinion. Although most would not be suprised if I said I enjoyed it, and I agree, I did only start to watch it because of Mr Slater.... BUT, It actually is a really good show. Although most would think I am biased and I would also usually think the same but trust me and believe me when I say this show is really good. To me it seems like it can only go from strength to strength. It's very well cast and the stories and easy to follow yet have twists and turns. Its a nice turn on the usual CSI type cop shows out there and it is something different and completley enjoyable and far from predictable and boring. The characters are written so well that they can evolve and you know it won't get silly. I do hope another season is given the go ahead because this show really is very very good!

This brings me onto, Cougar Town and Modern Family and Community.... utter brilliance, and that is all I will say on the matter, thankyou to my Kev to brings these shows into my life sooner than what Norway would have done. Hahaha.

Talk to you again soon peeps, just wanted to share those little non-thoughts with you!

Toodlepip.

MJ or MJ?

Okay, so I was listening to Michael Jackson (suprise suprise) last night and The Lady In My Life came on,.. I started singing along, like ya do and................ I was singing the wrong lyrics.. I thought to myself "eh? What the...." Then it hit me. I was not singing Michael's lyrics, I was singing a friend of mine's.
So I played my friends, then again Michael's and came to the conclusion I actually prefered my friends!!! I prefered the way he sang it. Period! You see I can now hear the difference in their voices bar a few songs like Human Nature, Gone To Soon and so on. Ah well, it's refreshing to know I can still be suprised haha! Thanks for that MJ!
Also I ahve a slight dilema.. (okay it's not a dilema and not really a big deal to most folks) ... I was suppose to see Michael Jackson perform live at the O2 Arena late February and for obvious reasons will not be doing. Also I have been wanting nothign more than to see my friend perform live also. I now have the chance and can not wait!!! The dates I were given were the 17th and 18th... cool I thought, oops I am to go and see Kristian Valen (Yayyyyy!) on the 18th, so I must go and see my friend on the 17th....not a problem I thought....
At least I think all these dates are right hahaha... Then I realised I will be watching my friend on the same date I was to watch Michael. So that will be tough.
Can't wait to finally see my friend live though, So as fate puts it I will be seeing at least one MJ that day.... the creepy thing is they sound the same hahaha.
So just who will I be listening to MJ or MJ?'
We'll see.
Toodlepip.